New Books, Old Books, and Doubt

New Books, Old Books, and Doubt

The giveaway is over, the winners have been contacted. If I didn’t reach out to you, I’m sorry, but there’s always the next one! It was less successful than I hoped and I learned some Dos and Don’ts for the next one. I’ll probably try again around December or when my next book drops. And that’s something I wanted to talk about today.

Nasu 3 (working title) is going to be a little delayed. I thought long and hard about this, beating myself up over not producing the third book right away, but then I remember George R. R. Martin hasn’t released the next installment in literal years, though he’s still obviously writing. I can give myself a little time.

I’m gonna be real, my confidence is kind of shot. The Blood Sealed series has a lot of moving parts that I thought I was handling OK, but then doubt set in. I’m not letting it stop me from writing completely, far from it. I just decided to take a different approach.

My next book will be coming out later this year, and if you follow my twitter, I’ve talked about it a ton. I’ve probably mentioned it here a few times. I’ve also posted some WIP snippets on my Patreon. I’m really excited about it, but I’m also terrified it won’t get the reach I want. I invest myself heavily in everything I produce, but this one feels more personal? It might not seem like that when you read it, but there’s a lot of me in there. I mean, it’s MM smut, it might not seem like there’s a lot, but I always endeavor to keep my work from being too shallow. And in doing so, I may have put too much of myself into it. But I’m going to release it anyway and hope that my brain gets it together and realizes that a rejection of my work is not a rejection of myself as a human being. I think that’s something I’ve struggled with the most on this creative journey. That even though I value my work, my work isn’t my value. Could I be more cheesy? Probably, but that was without really trying so I’m gonna stick with it.

Every day I try to acknowledge that everything’s a work in progress, me, my body of work, and I try to make peace with it. I think I’m a little closer to that this month than last.

Nasu 3 is coming soon. It’s always in the back of my mind and I’m thinking about how to make it bigger and better, while staying true to my plans for it in the beginning and making it satisfying. Just be patient with me. You won’t be wanting while I figure it out.